This and that: Today is a good day.  I am so excited that Heather cleared up the problem with my being able to use this site.... I feel happy and upbeat, in my elation about that, I just can't find a place in me for fear today.  I feel great!

Got the test results from my kidney dr.  The problem is my liver.  Have to find another doctor to follow up and discover what to do.  Kidney doctor thinks it's caused by the diabetes.  Surprise, surprise.  My diabetes has destroyed my body.

But I refuse to focus on anything negative today... today is a day for feeling good!  Plus, the hospital just called... they have an income based program that will give me a decrease-- any where from 10% to 100%-- on my bill there, and say most of the providers connected to their facility will honor that and give the same decrease.  They're sending me an application.  woohoo!

I have a drawer full of medical bills that I don't even open anymore. Too overwhelming.  So it would be cool indeed to have the bills reduced!  And maybe by a large percentage.

Some idiot stole my wheelchair!  My husband left it on the porch... we were going to go to a museum today, since it's his day off.  But it's gone, and my legs can't handle the museum, so instead we'll stay home and veg.  In fact, the bum is already asleep on the couch! LOL.  At least we'll spend time relaxing together.  I can play online for a while, then when he wakes up we can play games.  Sounds like a nice mellow day anyway.  I love to be with him.

Our daughter who lives with us is going out of town for the weekend.  We are grateful she lives with us... she is here to help take care of me, and has taken over running the office since my doctor made me quit work.  She is the only one of my kids who understand exactly how sick I am.  It terrifies her. She is 32 years old, and we get along great.  But my husband and I  seldom have time alone, so we are really looking forward to her being gone over the weekend. We will putter around the house, watch TV while cuddling on the couch, go to church, and just hang out together.  It should prove to be a good weekend.

I am going to do something today.... I haven't made up my mind what... but I'm going to do something today to start my journey towards having increased faith and peace.  I think I'll set up a new scripture reading schedule at readthescriptures.com, and set up a spreadsheet that will work as a daily log to help me get a routine of all the medical stuff and personal growth stuff... all my good intentions don't take me very far.  I intend to take all the medicines and count all the mgs of potassium, and phosphorus and sodium and all that special diet stuff, I intend on tracking the blood sugars and blood pressure... I intend on reading my BoM everyday, and praying bothing morning and night (at least) and I intend on lots of stuff.... but it seems I always forget part of it.... so if I spread sheet it and then use it as a sort of journal/check list, maybe it will help me get it done each day.  In fact, I want to do the rebounding every day as well.  Since my legs won't handle standing up, I have discovered that I can sit on the rebounder and bounce up and down on my bum, and that gives the same "cellusizing" effect. Obviously it isn't the same quality of exercise as regular rebounding, but it's what my body will do, and will be an improvement. I'll take any improvements!

My spreadsheet should include: morning weight... inportant with Congestive Heart Failure... blood pressure, blood sugar, medications taken, dietary counts... how much protein, sodium, potassium, phosphorus, carbohydrates and calories at each meal, rebounding, prayer, scripture study, time spent on book I'm writing, and journeling. And I think an area for personal relationshipship stuff... something like remembering to make at least one phone call a day to a friend or family member... I speak to some of my kids daily, the boys less because they're not talkers the same as the girls, but there are other people I care about that I let it go too long between talks... I need to put a little more effort into some of them.  Like calling Victoria, my granddaugther in Arizona. She is 10 and very lovely, and we talk every month or so... but it should be more frequent.  There are probably more. 

Steve (my friend and former employee when I was running the office) just called.  He is bringing a wheelchair over for me to use.  So I guess we get to go to the museum this afternoon after all!  Yahoo!

Guess I should go get ready!  The day is going to be a great one!  I hardly ever get out, and just for fun!