I found the words of the Christmas Song I was looking for. This is all I know about it so far.

Christmas Face

Dear mom, why are you not here?
Last year we said next year
We'd be gathered 'round the tree
But here I am

Dear dad, I miss you so much
Time has come between us
I miss the laughter of your smile
And your embrace

Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas
It doesn't feel the same
But it feels like California's
A million miles away
And I can't find my Cristmas Face

Dear Lori, someday you will fly
I know, but not this year
Dear Dan, without you it is not
A wonderful life
It's just another silent night

Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas
It doesn't feel the same
But it feels like California's
A million miles away
And I can't find my Cristmas Face

Without you here it's just another silent night

Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas
It doesn't feel the same
But it feels like California's
A million miles away
And I can't find my Cristmas Face

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