I came across a scripture the other day in 2 Nephi 9:7-9 which reads...
"Wherefore, it must needs bean infinite atonement- save it should be an infinite atonement this corruption could not put on incorruption. Wherefore, the first judgment which came upon man must needs have remained to an endless duration. And if so this flesh must have laid down to rot and to crumble to its mother earth, to rise no more.
O the wisdom of God, his mercy and grace! For behold, if the flesh should rise no more our spirits must become subject to that angelwho fell from before the presence of the Eternal God, and became the devil, to rise no more
And our spirits must have become like unto him, and we become devils, angels to a devil, to be shut out from the presence of our God, and to reamin with the father of lies, in misery, like unto himself; yea, to that being who beguiled our first parents, who transformeth himself nigh unto an angel of light, and stirreth up the children of men unto secret combinations of murder and all manner of secret works of darkness."
That scripture really hit me. I have always known of the Atonement and what Christ did for us but I never really realized that had he not died for our sins that not only would we not be able to return to our Father in Heaven and be eternal families, but we would have been forced to be with Satan and be miserable. I can't imagine how terrible that would be. I am so greatful for Jesus Christ. I am so greatful to have an older brother who loves me so much that he would suffer for my sins so that I can return to our Heavenly Father. What a selfless act he did for us. It makes me feel a bit guilty because there are times that i can be really selfish, and self centered. I complain about so many things when in reality they are small and trivial things. I want to be less selfish and to think about others before myself, to put them first like Christ did for us. He put us before himself. I want to be like that but it seems like an impossible goal. I know i wont achieve it and that i will fall short. But i do want to try.