Well, after many years (~ 15) of being inactive in the church and pushing God from my life, I took the first step in coming back into the fold. I had a meeting with the Bishop of the Ward I'll be attending.  There was much fear inside of me taking this step, but once we introduced ourselves and chatted for a few minutes, the feeling of comfort came over me I had not felt in years.

 I, being in recovery (sober now for 6 1/2) years was very-very angry at God for "allowing" certain events and loss of family members. I continually denied the presence of my Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ and the Holy Ghost. So I began a journey to find "the truth", and always thoughts of what I knew to be the truth would come into my head and heart. This denial had to stop, once some time ago, my testimony to the truthfullness of the Gospel and that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints IS the one and only true church of God on this planet was strong. I made choices that were not in accordance with Gods will and for that guilt and shame guided my life for awhile.

My visit with the Bishop was full of tears, I know this is but a beginning. After our meeting, I went out to my truck and another wave of tears came over me. I hope that as I continue on the path of repentence and to keep God's commandements (surely better than I had), that my Father in Heaven will forgive me.