I have had so many signs and answers to prayers that it is hard to remember them all.

Here are a few...

I was about to lose my car and was told by the finance company that they could not wait til the end of the week when I would get paid to pay it

I had placed the letter of reposession in my BOM and I prayed all during my lunch hour. I had been defeated and I would not resort to the trickery suggested by my co workers. I sadly walked back into work and hugged my BOM to me with a small prayer and then.... My work phone rang and it was them?? ( They have never called me at work) It was a very nice lady who had seen my file and decided to call me to accept my proposal. I was elated!! I cried so hard and my co worker was like "WOW !! Prayer works!!"

Another time we did not have the money to pay our house payment and I prayed and my mother in law who pays our house payment for us so it gets paid ontime, told my husband that we could skip this week due to we had enough money from the last time we paid....

One other time was when I was so worried about our finances that it was making me sick and I joked that the only way we could get caught up was if my ex husband paid the child support...

Well....it got paid twice that month and he only pays me once a month....

One Time I was low on money and needed gas to get to work and I found 10.00 at work under a chair. (I'm the only one who works in here and I knew it was not mine.) I asked if anyone had dropped anything and everyone replied "No".

There are others but I can't remember them right now

Comments welcome......

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"Coins or Stones"

Here I am again with yet another deep thought. Picture this... you are alone in the desert and a stranger comes up to you and offers you coins or stones...

Which do you choose?

I pondered this all the way home one afternoon and finally made my decision then I asked my sons which they would choose.

My oldest said "Coins!" because you can buy things you need.

My youngest said, "Stones!" I asked him why did he pick stones over coins and he said that coins would only be good for a little bit becuase they have to be given away to help you. Stones can be used for many purposes and you can keep them.

Good points!

My oldest then agreed and got excited about how to use stones. He suggested making slingshots and tools. He said it could be used to hold things down like a paperweight. My youngest suggested that coins can be helpful financially but they have to be used to purchase and if you are all alone there is no use for them.

HMM?? I also remember a scripture stating that you cannot serve two masters. You cannot worship God and money. So..my thought is.. Is the money representing Satan and the stones representing God and Jesus?

Afterwards when my sons had grown tired of the debate...I went to my jewelry box and removed a polished stone and amythest stone that I had been keeping for years. I gave my sons each a stone and said that they were my stones and I choose them over coins anyday!!

Comments and thoughts welcome.... hope to hear what you

think....

Funny thing: I know God has a sense of humor because everytime I pray for patience he sends me more patients.....

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Well Saturday was my 38th birthday and it went rather well. We went to see Journey to the Center of the Earth. Great Movie!!  ....

Ok so I have been thinking what have I accomplished in 38 years?

1. I have a new house (3 yrs old and we watched it being built from the ground up) in a great neighborhood.

2. My oldest son got his driver's license

3. I attend church regularly and socialize more than I ever did with them.

4. I run a laboratory practically by myself. (My supervisor is 30 mins away from where I work)

5. I'm not divorced or thinking about it

6. We had to file bankruptcy (best thing we ever did)

7. I read the whole BOM!!!

8. I got a new car in 2006 (Pontiac vibe)

9. I raise sugar gliders (My babies)

10. I may have more gray hair but I have an awesome stylist  lol

11. Got a new dog (Dixie was 4 years old when my husband gave her to me for Christmas)

12. Found inner peace and strength that I did not know that I had.

13. Gained a few more pounds (Im more fluffy now LOL)

14. Got a raise at work!!

15. Lost and regained my best friend back

16. got a myspace page LOL!!! (Only because my high school reunion committee has one )

Whoa!! That's quite a bit of things that I have accomplished!!

comments welcome.....

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Ok I finally got up the courage and the time to write about myself and my trial and tribulations.

First off I was born into the church meaning my mom and dad were members but were never sealed. I was baptised 7 times. YeS! you read that right! It took 7 dunks to get me baptised. 3 times I fought because I was(am) afraid of water. The other 3 times was because the Elder forgot the words. 7th time worked and I looked like a drowned rat LOL!! Moving on...... I attended off and on as a child with my mom who was divorced and remarried to a nonmember. I started going regularly when I was 14 years old and attended youth conferences and dances and such. I met a guy at the Troy State (Alabama) youth conference who I became good friends with and later married outside of the temple). He was the ideal Mormon boy. He was looked up to at his church by the younger guys. We were happy together but we had a bad habit of going off and on to church (laziness) til one day he started paying attention to porn and RPG more than the good things in life. He did things and I did things that tore us apart. He is now in another state and remarried. I met another guy that I went to school with and started dating him. I eventually moved in with him (I know Bad Girl!! lol) We got married that next year. I honestly believe I married him to keep my ex husband from being able to come back to me. I remarried before he did and I refused to let him talk or see me for 2 years. Anyway.... this man was also a nonmember but he let me attend church. I went off and on yet again to church. I was dealing with some very bad sins then and I felt unworthy but I kept believing that someday I would forgive and be forgiven and go back to where I longed to be. I missed the church badly but I was worried about how they would accept me.

I was into things that would rip your soul apart and I actually felt it was ok to do them because it was my life and I didnt care what happened. i degraded myself to make my man happy and I will never do it again. I watched bad movies and cussed and hated myself for it. I would even pick at myself til I started to bleed. I was one person on the inside but I showed a different person on the outside. I went along with things that I knew were wrong because they make it look so innocent. I commited adultry with permission.... Weird huh?

Don't do as I have done and if you have...STOP!! You are kidding yourself that it is ok!! It is not ok and you are hurting yourself by doing it! The media make it seem like everybody is doing it but that is just what they want you to think.

I firmly believe that if I had not been date-raped at 17 ...I would have waited til marriage and went to the temple. Girls!! don't let yourself get into a situation that you do not want to be in. Don't give in and if you have....repent and be made whole again by living they way you should. I know from experience that you are in charge of your body and no one has the right to make you do anything you feel is wrong!

If he loves you.. he will respect you and wait. Giving in..changes you and your aspect on things.

I realized that my new husband was in love with something that I could not compete with, VODKA and carnal things and I could not deal with his drunkeness or lewdness any longer so I left him after 4 years of marriage. I got a small apartment for me and my 2 sons (first marriage) and we struggled but we were happy. I had a good friend who's parents lived across from my ex (2nd one) and he ended up being hubby #3 (more on this later) He was great and I fell in love with him. (Yes Nonmember!!) LOL We were very happy we had a brand new home, 2 new cars and I had a great job. He was set up by a supposed friend and lost his job that he had for 9 years. He started having violent mood swings and we fought alot. I'm talking fist fights from Hades. I went to counseling and nothing worked. I got put on medication to deal with him and that did not work. Finally, he was seen by a doctor that told us what was wrong with him. He is Bipolar and he had to be put on meds to help him. They say it was when he lost his job that he started having episodes. One day.. we were fussing about something and he was about to put on his deodorant. He hit me in the head with it and it cut me. I bled all down my face and it stunned me so I sat in the floor bleeding and crying. I was rushed to the ER where I made up a story and they glued my head up. We also had bad bouts of debt. He would get credit cards and spend money all the time. We almost lost our home twice due to foreclosure. I even got involved with payday loans and that got out of control. One day things were so bad that I just broke down and prayed and cried. I was about to lose my home and my car. I had been helped by my mom 2 times already and she could not help me anymore. I called my bishop (I was attending church at that time) and he helped me. They gave me food from the welfare service to help me make my payments. They also counseled me and forgave me of my past sins. We also had our missionaries over alot to help us to cope. I will say this... We filed bankruptcy chpt 13. We now have one big payment instead of 3. This will be paid over 5 years. My hubby also changed. He became who he used to be and attended church with me. He enjoys being there and he feels a feeling there like nothing he has ever experienced before. He was baptised July 6th 2008 and we attend regularly and we are both happy again. We still fuss but now we pray with each other instead of fighting.

sometimes you gotta go through HELL to get to Heaven.....

Now I attend regularly. I pray on my way to work daily (people probably see me talking and think I'm nuts or on a bluetooth lol!! )  We may not manage our money too wisely but we do try. I have finally read all of the BOM and i'm currently reading D&C. I owe alot to our missionaries they helped me to get over my lack of self worth and gain something precious.... My Testimony!!

comments and questions welcome..

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It seems to me that everyday there is someone trying to disprove something. For instance, we have people basing religion on FACTS! Since when has this been based on facts? Our faith is gained by believing and trusting. Too many people want to be shown "magic tricks" so they can be convinced of what they have strong doubts about. Why spend so much time looking for things that you should not be looking for? Go with your heart! Pray for answers! They may not come to you like a bolt of lightning but they will come. I have had so many tests of faith in my life. Some I passed and some I failed. I learned from these and that helped me to build a firmer foundation of faith.

Building your faith is like building a house. You don't start with the roof without the walls. You have to start with a firm foundation and build your way up and make sure you reinforce your supports. You add the plumbing and electrical after you have built the walls. Meaning .... you start out concentrating on one project before you start another one. You build it brick by brick or plank by plank. You may hammer your thumb now and then but HEY! in the long run it was worth it right?

build your foundation with scripture study, attending church and really listening to the talks and most of all... PRAYER!!

Comments welcome....

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I found this joke and I wanted to share it with all of you...

It kinda shows how we miss "The Big Picture " by over analysing things....

Lone Ranger and Tonto

The Lone Ranger and Tonto went camping in the desert. After they got
their tent all set up, both men fell sound asleep.

Some hours later, Tonto wakes the Lone Ranger and says, "Kemo Sabe, look
towards sky; what you see?"

The Lone Ranger replies, 'I see millions of stars.'

"What that tell you?" asked Tonto.

The Lone Ranger ponders for a minute then says, "Astronomically
speaking, it tells me there are millions of galaxies. Time wise, it
appears to be approximately a quarter past three in the morning.
Theologically, the Lord is all powerful and we are small and
insignificant. Meteorologically, it seems we will have a beautiful day
tomorrow. What does it tell you, Tonto? "

"You dumber than buffalo. Someone stole tent......"

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I was on my way home yesterday evening which is an hours drive and I started pondering things I had read in the Book Of Mormon. I am in 4th Nephi and trying to read the whole book by the end of this month. I started imagining an apple tree full of ripe apples. The apple tree was full and ready to be harvested. The harvesters gathered up all the apples but one. This apple had been eaten on by a worm and it was starting to rot. The apple had lost it's goodness and felt it could never be a good apple ever again. Eventually, rains and storms came and knocked the sad little apple loose from the branches. It fell onto the ground and started turning into a rotten mess. The apple felt so sad and ruined and longed to be a good apple again. One day a huge storm raged through the apple tree fields and the rain came down in torrents. The apple had given up and let itself be washed away by the flood. Earlier that day one of the harvesters had dug a hole for a new tree to be planted but left his work quickly due to the upcoming storms. The hole was fresh and well dug and the soil was rich and plentiful. The apple washed into the hole and the soil buried it deep in the earth. The sad apple had decided that this was its fate and that it should just let nature take it's course. Then something amazing happened, the apple tree started to grow from the seeds that had been planted by the storm in the hole. The happy reborn tree pushed it's way through the soil and dug its roots deep in the ground and grew with love and patience into a beautiful apple tree.

So what does this mean to you?....

It means to me that we sometimes have the good ruined within us but if we are patient and have faith we can be "planted on gospel sod " and re- grow with love, patience and above all faith.

We too can be like that apple tree....

I welcome your comments and share with me what you think this thought meant to you...

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