Okay so this is the first blog I've written.  But wanted to get some of my thoughts down in writing.

My son who is a senior in high school and is 17 made a huge step in his life yesterday.  He took an oath to join the Navy.  He will be on a delayed entry program and will not leave until August 11, 2009.

I have so many mixed feelings.  Most of them being selfish. 

Until I moved to Utah 13 years ago, the Navy life had been the only life I had known.   My dad, my uncle and my ex husband are all retired Navy.  I worked for the Navy for 18 years as a civilian.  I love the Navy life and the opportunities it can give someone.

I think this will be an excellent opportunity for him to learn, to grow, to experience and to hopefully see some of the world.

At the same time, this son is my bud.  We do so much together.  He's my friend.  While I want him to enjoy and progress in something, it saddens me to think I will also be losing him somewhat.  I know that's how life is..it's just coming faster than I thought it would. 

And with the state of the world these days it frightens me at the same time.  Will I be sending him off to war?  Will I lose him to war?  

As a mother you always want to protect your child and keep him out of harm's way.  But in this case I have no control.

He's excited for the possibilities.  Already looking at ways he can progress in rank and he hasn't really even started yet.  I'm proud of him and proud that he wants to follow in the tradition of family.

I guess my little boy is growing up.   

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