when i feel i am alone and no one with me i am crying in the dark and saying "why i lost everything?" I'm trying to find myself but i cant found where i am?..Its really hard to think and really hard to do anything, I dont know what to do I dont know where to go.....

My mother came up to my mind.. She is the last and only person that i know were going to understand me and she will comfort me.... I need her hug, I need her love..

But i am so disappointed when i was there, She didnt gave me the hug that I need..even if asking " How am I for almost 10 years I am not with her....

She not surprise when she saw me after a years.. I cant seethe excitement that I expecting to see on her face...I want to run away in that place, the only hope in my heart is lossing to find someone to comfort me and who can give me a big hug while telling me" Dont worry everything will be fine" The only thing that i can do at that time is just close my eyes and take a deep breath saying.." Lord i know this part of your plan i put my trust into your hand"

    When I was arive but i dont know where the jeepny is stop and I take of there I am walking in the road near to church gate when i look inside gate I wonder when i saw the woman walking in the ground and i wishper i know that woman When she is near to me I recognizse her and she know too She is the woman lived in the place where i was born when she saaaw me she gave me a hug and asking " how i am?" I feel so happy at the time like a bird found the bough to take a rest I feel i found someone that I been looking for the one who can understand me and judging me without knowing my reason behind it...I found someone who can I can borrow the shoulder when the time i want to cry....She is Ate Analyn...I am so bleesed to meet this person to be my guide....

      While a go, Ate Analyn have a lots of problem because she is widow with 4 kids... I want to help her but i cant do anything... I lived with her ans i am thinking that i am the one of her burden...I decided to leave her house because i dont want to be the one of her burden....

      While i am not with her i found a job as a sales lady to support my daily needs but even if i have that work I feel incomplete I'm looking for something but I dont know what and again  my mind is starting to think again... thinking everything my mind is in trouble again while ia alone in the room I heared my phone its ringing when i get that I saaw Ate Analyn name she is calling at me when I answerd it She is asking me where I amwhat happining to me?..... after I talked with her she send me amessage she telling me "" Come back here before the enrollment is starting you will go back to school to continue your study" My tears are faliing in my eyes i cant controled it and I asked her "Why you still caring at me and worrying at me? even if I am not with you?" and she answered " Of course I'm worry about you , you are my sister remember?" and she said " Please listen to me even if  now only.." Now I realize I am not alone have alot of people around me..... THanks for Ate Analyn I appreciate her love,effort and support for me..

     I will gave million of thanks to Heavenly Father to gave this woman for me to be my guidance...being my eldest sister...and my bestfriend...

     Now she is helping to finish my study to build my confidence that I can do everything She teach me how to become strong for every trials that comes my way told me that dont run and hide if its hard...

     Ate Analyn Thank you for being part of my life...

Tags: WISPHER OF THE HOLY GHOST

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Saturday evening before i going to sleep i kneel down to pray to Heavenly Father...then when i woke up in the Sunday morning the first Sunday of the month i feel something deferent when i open my eyes i feel better and i feel peace in my mind..then i prepare myself to go to church...Fast and testimony meting i am siting in my chair listening to testimony of the member i feel something nervous then i recall the missionary said if you feel something deferent in sacrament hall dont deny it, its means the holy ghost is in your side you need to share your testimony,,and i stand and go to the front i bore my testimony...after that and i go back to my chair i feel someone told me i am already forgiven....thats what i pray to Heavenly Father to forgive me....Once again i can prove the power of prayer and i also prove Heavenly Father never leave me..He is always at my side waiting for me to confess about my sin..He always ready to forgiven someone,, once again I prove Heavenly Father love's me so much...I know all of us have a deferent problem and sometimes we feel Heavenly Father is very far away..but is not true He and His Son Jesus Christ is always at our side to help us and guild us...The only thing we need is to be faithful..and always trust to Him...endure to the end to get the eternal life...and always hold the iron rod......Once again "THE PRAYER IS POWERFUL"

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I feel sadness today i dont know why my sister far away from me inside in my mind i feel worry about her i feel something bad i dont k now why....then i got message from her"" please call me my life is dangerous right now"" now i know why i feel worry about her....i want to help her but i dont know how she is very far from me  how can i go there....i dont have job and i really dont have a money to get her...now my mind is still thingking what i am going to do...who can help me...my only strenght for now is prayer...i know Heavenly Father knows what best for us...please pray for my sister.............thank you..............

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One fine morning i'm sitting under the tree beside my home..i have something  in my mind but i dont know what...i want to go outside but i dont know where,at that time  i have only 10 pesos and my hand.....if  I going outside i need to ride and pay 7 pesos for the driver....but i have only 10 pesos if i go how can i came back.....? after few minute i dont know what happen but i gonna change my dress and ready to go...without any daubt in my mind,,i dont know but someone whisper  in my ears..saying go follow me.......i will guild you.....and teach where you going.......my feet started to walk..after a while i find my self in the house of my cousin.....i borrow some money to her and ask her to be  with me to find the place where i want to go....but she ask me where...i dont know how can i answer that because even i am i dont know where....i told her i dont know but i want to go the one place here i dont know where.......i saw in her face  have a daubt to go with me...but even if she go with me.........after 2 hours me and my cousin walking along the way...and she said where are we going i'm so tired to walk...I just wondering for my answer i tell her "we are gonna find the Church" until that time i dont know what the reason...when me and my cousin talking to each other i saw to girls walking with wear Sunday dress......I go her and ask where here i find the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints? we both smiling at me and say i am a member.....I'm happy to know that...and i dont know i feel very happy to know i can find the church I feel in my heart have someone waiting there for me,the irl given me the direction to find the church  ....after few minute..huh! finaly i am in the gate..when i look inside i saw the girl very familliar at me......she going outside the church.....when i see her face to face oh.....no......is she.....she is......she is sister Analyn....when she saw me she give me hug.......I feel comfort... at the side in my mind saying she is the one waiting for you here...........Now I am living with her and her kids she very kind.....i realy love her she teach me a lot......she is very admirer lady,,she have very strong faith,,,I know this is Heavenly Father plan...and the voice i heared is the voice of holy ghost.........and for telling i'm not the only one have trials in this earth........I know the small voice is always in ourside to teach us when someone feeling down........

Tags: ""SMALL VOICE""

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            &nb sp;    aNight is so very dark when I o outside,I look bove and I saw the moon also with the star....I look that for few minute i have something in my mind I recall my past the day when i was a little girl...my mind is started thingking about my past...I remember the day when I live with my parent the Sunday were all always ready to go to church together......I cant never forget that day.........

            &nb sp;     One morning when I open my eyes i saw all darkness around me....If it is a dream .......please get me up and i dont want to sleep again..my loving mother and father are fighting in my dreams......I shout and say .....""please get me up,please get me up.....""" But no one came  to awake me ........ after all the tears in falling down in my eyes because I realize it is not a dream that true and reality my parent just quarelle in my front........

            &nb sp;    after that they dicided to say goodbye to each other...I understand what they are saying..I cant control tears in my eyes........I love my mother also my father I want to live with both of us...........

            &nb sp;   My father decided to leave the place where we are living because this my mother want........I worry about my father because he is olderman I know he need someone to be with him...at my age of 8 years old my mind is thingking very deep........and ask "what I am going to do?""after that I decided to go with him....I live with him but after 1 year he is dead .........

             my mind is in truoble "how can i live at age of 9...........at that time I realy feel how much Heavenly Father loves me..He never leave me,He is alsways at my side..He give me my nieghboor to taking care of me I live with my nieghboor house for almost 10 years....that family is very kind and have tender heart

            &nb sp; 11 years ago after the tragedy in my life........but until now all is still fresh in my mind and heart ...........I want to forget all about my past but it is like a nightmare in my life everytime I close my eyes i saw that.....

           Until now i'm still facing and fighting all the trials comes into my way........I know all trials in our life is planted from Heavenly Father to make us strong and faithful..

         I realy love the trials and I want to give millions of thank you for Heavenly Father to give me a lot of trials because I have learn a lot of things....I learn how can stand with my own feet,I learn how to forgive and how to survive.........

       Now i'm gonna say ""I WILL SURVIVE"""..................................

Tags: "THE PAST"

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